Life, the ability to know, feel, and understand that purpose which creates harmony and peace for oneself! Peace for those that are next to come and the gift of knowing that your work is not yet done! It’s a tranquility unknown like any other! To be sure of the energy within your heart and the trust in all that love has to offer! The suspense of when it may all be over and the decisions of whether to keep your faith or give up on all that you know to be true! To be here in this time, cultivating love, being honest with each other, no matter how painful the truth may be! Alive! Hoping, waiting, and becoming all that you could possibly be! Without any limitation or blockade! Just finally living….
Love on ice is love without truth, the sharpening of a blade known as pain by the thought of losing you. Without the peace of mind in knowing our love is true, how can one expect two hearts to merge when one was torn between two. Between the thoughts of us or maybe just the thoughts of you. I guess even the moments of time where you age like fine wine gives insight as to where our love proves true. True in the moments of heartache and pain, true in the times where life seems overly mundane, maybe even true now as your heart experiences the peace of love and joy as my soul continues to pour over into you! One thing for sure that stands and shines as bright as the moon, this heart of diamonds beats only for you!
Beyond time and space
the sand which sifts through the narrowing of an hour glass.
Encompassed within the realm of nostalgia
as reality’s heartbreak is on the cusp of revelation
Intrigued by the peaceful cool breeze of wind that earth breathes on us.
Fueled by its energy and life as trust is restored and as balance soothes its twilight.
As if it’s possible to expect a flower to grow in darkness!
Or to live a life of unknown feeling!
No sense of purpose
No understanding of oneself
And in search of all that happiness is worth
Or a house even,
made from love and with love
For the child without love
May 2, 2012. 8:19pm
“DON’T DO THIS! PLEASE! DON’T!”
Gun cocked. Safety off.
Good riddance and Good night!
Seven years. I say to myself again Seven years! smh. How could I have held this back for so long, when every day since then life has been begging for me to let it go. I guess it’s true when they say “you don’t know how strong you are, until strong is what you must be!”
It’s strange you see, how that night really took so much from me. A Traumatizing experience and spiritual grandeur shattered. but what death took from me God has restored as each year has dawned anew. Giving me a new life, a new found purpose, and more than enough reason to fight until the end! You want to know my story, well the time is here!
On the night where I made a promise and recommitment to God at my home church, destruction came to end my life and stop me in my tracks. As a young man a mere age of eighteen, I was the first of many to lead those who are after God’s own heart. On this very same night I was faced with life and death itself, held hostage at gun point on my church grounds with nothing but Faith in my heart, mind, body and soul. Hands up!! I began to yell! “PLEASE DONT DO THIS! PLEASE PUT THE GUN DOWN! PLEASE LET MY FAMILY GO!” Standing there willing to give my life for my mother, my father, and my little sister. Ready to pay the cost of all I had done while allowing God to use me.
Im unsure if it was the hate in this preachers eyes or the greed of wanting what I possessed that made him take my life. But He just stood there with no words to say, nothing but pure anger and determination to end my life. And for a while, I actually started to believe that I was dead, sleeping, resting in the great abyss, when actually God was fueling me for the distance I am now prepared to run!
They say the enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy those who are of the Lord. But what is that really saying? See I’ve come to realize that God finds you, when you want to be found. He creates you, when you want to be re-born. And He’s there with you, even after everyone else is gone.
So Let this be a message to put an end to gun violence and an end to what you knew about me! May your Faith grow stronger, may You love Harder, and fight each day! God Bless and God’s speed!